Although I preach you all guys about self improvement and how it will change your lives for the better and also I tell you all guys to follow self improvement rigorously but today I will tell you about my self improvement journey.
Just about a month or two ago my self development was off the charts. I was reading, meditating, following a skin-care routine, exercising daily, writing these blogs and other stuff.
Everything was going on well until it was time for my HSLC exams. I had to study and fit in other stuff so I didn't even get time to workout. So, instead of hitting a full workout I just hit a couple of pushups every day.
I made a promise to myself that after my exams I would perform my workouts rigorously, do meditation everyday, eat clean, do journaling everyday, have an awesome skin care routine, publish almost 1 blog post everyday but I couldn't keep up with my promise.
It's not that I didn't have time but it was because I was too much involved into instant gratification.
After my exams were over I started masturbating almost everyday, I eat junk food almost everyday, I waste time almost everyday.
I feel guilty of doing these but I never get up and do the stuff that I must do inorder to achieve my greatest goal 'To be the top 5% of men'. I literally hang around with my elder brother around town.
I nowadays never hit a good workout. Like, I never reach that point of muscle fatigue.
I am sorry guys
I am really sorry guys. I always tell you guys to eat clean, workout, meditate, journal, not to focus on girls but I too don't follow what I say. I am just trying to be the best version of myself but now I am seeing myself slowly derailing from the track.
My masturbation problem:
My masturbation problem is just out of control. I masturbate almost everyday and I am very guilty of it.
My youtube addiction:
I am also addicted to youtube. Everytime when I open youtube I will watch countless reels until I realize that I must be working
The good things that I still do:
I still workout(although not that much)
I still write these blogs
I still keep a timetable but I don't even follow it.
So sorry guys please forgive me.
And curse me in the comments. I literally want to be cursed at by others. Please criticize me in the comments.
Even I'm facing the exact same problems. I think we can use Accountability partners in order to make sure that we accomplish our habits everyday.
ReplyDeleteYou can chat me in my Instagram.
DeleteJust search for 'ay.n_mitra' and message me with a "Yo!"
I will be happy to be your accountability partner.